assalamualikum.

emm.. susah nk gmbrkn ape yg sye rse skrg. hepy? sbb dye dh bhgia? sedeyh? sbb sye khlgn dye?

entah. susah nk dscribe.susah sngt.

hujan..sye just sndirian skrg. alone.

sye tpakse wt  cmtu wak. mybe bile awk bce entry post nie,awk akn cbe nk bbeq smule nge sye. tp.sye rse cukuplah. kesian kat awk. sye xnk sbb diri sye awk jd cmni.xde kwn. hilang sye gntiannye awk akn dpt kwn2 lme awk(sye hrp).. awk. sye taw awk dh lteyh hadapi hdup mcm nie. sbb tu sye ambik kptsn untk lpskn awk...walaupun kptsn yg sye ambik amat myakiti hati sye sndiri.

awk taw x.. mse sye kutuk2 awk,sye dgr awk nges.. awk taw x,hati sye retak sngt mse tu.. sye nk nges tp sye kne hbiskn lakonan nie dlu. atleast sye bjye wat awk patah hati dgn sye. cukuplah. i though u had it enough. mngkin law kte still ad jodoh,kte akn jmpe smule kn? awak. jgn nges lagy sbb sye k? sye buat sume nie untk awak. sye buat sume nie sbb sye sygkn awk. sye buat sume nie sbb sye taw,u deserve better than dis. u r kind guy. i was lucky to meet with u n become a great friend with you rite?:) 

sye tahu byk pkara blaku sbb hbgn kte. mngkin ada baiknye ble sye lpskn awk. mngkin pkara baik akn blaku pd awak.. sye doakn agar awk dpt kwn blek nge geng2 tu. just,hdup sye mybe xkn sme mcm dlu. well,2years is not a short time rite?

awak.. byk sye nk explain kat awk. knpe sye sakitkn hati awk cmtu smpai awk ambik kptsn untk tnggl sye. tp tu la ape yg sye inginkn. kalau sye tngglkn awk,awk msty akn sngt3 sdeyh n stress. tp law awk tnggl  sye,sye len. sye bleyh pendam. dh terbiase. snyum dpn owg. gelak dpn owg. n even sye bleyh main2 dgn hepy dpn sume owg. hidup nie mcm pnts drama. everything just an acting thing. hati nie spe taw btape sakitnye kn?

sye juz kesal sye tpakse tpu awk untk buat awk tnggl sye. juz,dats the only way to make u safe. cinta x smestinye mmiliki. syg xsmestinye bsama slmenye. mngkin,ble kte syg owg tu,ad pgorbanan yg kte kne buat. law syg,psti kte nk dye hdup bhgia kn? mngkin jugak,sye hrpkn agar dye akn temui owg yg xde kaitan nge geng2 tu lagi. 

skrg atleast sye fhm. there r too much to be sacrifice. n sye fhm jugak knpe awk snggup bthan slme nie demi sye. mcm mne lah awk bleyh hadapinye 2 tahun nie? lame tu. sory. sye byk ignorekn tgisan awk. skrg,just ignore me n enjoy ur new life.. awk sume,bg pluang kat dye untk jd kwn awk smule bleyh? dats my only hope:( jhat sye kn? sng2 jep sye hncurkn hati awk. in just ONE day...awk..maafkn sye. 

skrg sye dh xde spe2. sye xnk cntct nge awk lagy. sye dh delete sume ttg awk lam fon sye. sye xnk ingt psl awk. sbb sye xnk sye nges lagy ble stiap kali sye tgk awk.. tp,our memories. its too valuable to be burnt down. law mreka bg ksmptn n pluang pd kte,kn bgus. sye xperlu nges. n awk xperlu nges. n xde spe2 yg akn tluke truk mcm nie.emm. mngkin la mse dlu ade jugak yg tluke,tp xramai kot? sowg due? mybe..

sblum nie sye dgr ad puang yg cntct nge awk. tp dye xnk introduce diri dye kat awk. dye just nk awk add kat fb dye. mybe awk akn ad teman bru xlme lagy. kn?:) i will be happy. for u. i will be crying all day night long. for me.

nie sye reka sndiri:) mngkin untk awk,dye or sye sndiri:)

i left this road,

and turn my head back,

i see you,

you seem happy,

now i know,

wat is sacrifice.

i left this road,

mybe i return,

mybe i am not,

don't wait for me,

just go..

n forget everything about our story.

lets start new day,

just like others,

says 'hi' n 'good morning',

juz like them,

i'm hana,

n you?

                                                                                             -mics chiyo hana-

awak... hari nie sye tgk ade lopak air kat rumput..awk nges lagy ye? knpe awk nges nie? awk sdeyh psl ape? tell me:O awak..awak jgn nges.awk kne kuat mcm sye^^ 

today i smile to the world,

but how many of them do know,

how my heart ache so much...

today i laugh till tears burst,

but how many of them do know,

how i cried inside...

today i walk with excited,

like someone is waiting for me at the end of the path,

but how many of them do know,

i walk with blood as my hearts tore,

carrying a plaster,

n say to world..

"help me. heal me. i cant take it"

today i take photo with a peace sign,

but how many of them do know,

how i want to cried,

n express all what i had been keep it all dis time,

to the world,

so that they would understand me...

enough. dont treat me like dis.my heart couldn't pretend always.

stop. stop hurting me.

assalamualaikum w.b.t

sometimes,sye tfikir byk kali. ble sye tgk hujan,sye rse tertanye2,, hujan  itu rahmat atau bala? well,wats i mean.. ble musim kemarau,hujan itu rahmat.. ble hujan tlampau,jd bnjir.. so,we should be grateful wat we have rite? stick to one dat can alwez be with us in hardness or exciteness..

kawan.. i just want to remind u. when u already do sure dat u r in love in someone n dats person also show u da same response,do appreciate him/her. dun give hope to others juz bcause u want all of them to be in love with u. friends,jgn jd tamak. say alhamdulillah:) owg yg tamak slalu rugi. n rugi itu mngkin mjd pkara yg kte sesali sngt2 di hari yg kmudian..

yepp,nk jd kawan. salah k? dear friends... kawan xslh,but law nmpk sngt mlampau n buat lbih dr seowg kwn ptut buat,dats name "concern". n concern tu,bleyh buat sumone jatuh hati nge kte.. ble kte mle dekati owg tu,kte tnggalkn gitu jep yg sblumnye. hati bkn mainan yg kte ltk n tnggl wak. ble dh bbrpe tapak kte mlngkh n cbe brundur untk cari hati tu balik,mngkin hati tu dh jd milik owg lain. or mngkin hati tu dh hlg jejak..

the most precious thing, hati.. when someone do give us their heart,dats mean they do believe in us to take care of it with love n care.. bkn untk kte jatuhkn n plaster smule.. bkn untk kte ltk je lam kaca n xusik2 slps tu. n xbmksd kte bleyh bg hati tu kpd owg lain..tlalu byk pkara wak untk kte discover.. tlalu byk.. tp,once we made a mistake,we learn something. we should appreciate it.

oke,fine.law xske knpe layan? law xmcube mberi hrpn,knpe beri phatian pdnye? check ur heart. 

kisah silam? well. sume pkara ada ksh nye.. sama ada ske atau tdak. sama ada bgus atau buruk. sama ada hepy ending or bad ending.. all is the same. we cant turn the tyme back. now,juz step up in the reality.. wat we want,not all will be granted. wat we dont want,not all will be away from us. takdir yg tntukn. Allah tntukn sgala galanye. Dia taw yg tbeq buat kte. wateva yg blaku,juz pull on ur smile as bright as u could:)

wat the most important is,syukur ape yg ade nge kte skrg. kn awak? sye taw awk akn stuju dgn sye:)

bbye. n gudluck spm^^

all da bestttt!!!! fighting!

PASANG LAGU "BECAUSE I MISS YOU BY JUNG YONG HWA" SBLUM BACA.. TQ:)

sye post lagy mlm nie.. sbb sye rse hati sye xkeruan sngt.. sye tgk jam. yup,sye akn tepati jnji sye.. sye akan on9 tgh2 mlm nie..huk3.

hati nie xkeruan sngt. seolah2 ade yg mgoncang agar tidak tng.. sye xdpt tdo lena lagy nmpknye mlm nie..huk3. tp sye mmg ptowt dpt blsn nie..

ble sye fikirkn..yup,sye gmbira sbb sye da dpt fokus pd pljrn sye..tp ade saja yg sye fikirkn. i thought i gonna take it easy,but it turn out very unlikely wat i had think..sye juz mmpu mgadu pada Allah.. sbb pada Dia shaja yg mmpu sye bterus trg ttg prasaan sye. sume perasaan yg sye pndm slme bbrpe tahun nie sumenye sye luahkn.. mudah-mudahan Allah mnunjukkan aturan yg tbeq buat sye.huk3.

mlm makin gelap.. makin dalam fikiranku menerawang. sngguh berat rasanye bahu ini. tpaksa mmikul dua perkara yg tlalu blwnn. satu hrpn. satu impian. sungguh,inginku lepaskn keduanya dn blalu pergi.. nmun ia trus mgamitku dgn kata2 yg bisaku tewas agar trus mgangkut keduanye shingge k jalan akhir.. saat aku cuba melepaskn sumenye pergi,ade shj kata2 yg mmaksaku truskn pjlnn..

aku cuba mlupakan sakit dahulu.. nmun tdk trubat jua. kini dtg yg baru,mninggalkn parut yg msih baru bdarah smule..sakit. sakit sangat. hnye boleh dgmbrkn dgn air mata.. aku bkn owg yg kuat,yg ade muscle dlm hati,yg pnyai rse gmbira saat hatiku kuat ditoreh luka...nmun aku ttp mdesak diriku. snyum jie.. snyum. jgn biarkn mreka lihat kelemahanmu. aku ego sngt k? entah.huk3. aku cme mmpu lihat kedepan. mmalsukan tangisan dgn snyuman. mmalsukn air mata dgn ketawa. Ya Allah,btapa peritnye saat bsandiwara bgini..

andai satu hari nanti aku turut mdpt tahu yg dia mmpunyai yg lain sperti aku tahu yg sblumnye..tdk dpt aku gmbrkn ape reaksiku.. krne,hati nie sjujurnye msih myayangi.. hati nie msih tdk mahu mlepaskn. tp ats desakan, hati ini tpaksa mlpskn dlm keadaan tdak rela... sumenye snyi. takde dh wish "nanait!" atau "mownink!"... knpe hati nie degil sngt. owg suh lupakan.

hati paling hebat. kerana hati yg plg jujur..walau bgaimana ddsk,hati ttp jujur mgatakn ape yg dia rasai.. sama lah keadaan skrg. yup,mulutku kata aku dh lupekan sumenye,kte jd kwn k? tp dlm hati hnye Dia yg taw ape yg aku dustakn dmi kpntgn owg len.. aku baik sngt? smpai lukakan perasaan sndiri dmi mlihat owg lain gmbira? atau ini mmg takdirku? untk mnerima kbhagian owg lain shingga snggup toreh hati sndiri? mne la yg se species nge aku nie? aku nk sngt jmpe..huk3. 

jie.jgn nges. kuat taw.. sumenye bleyh diungkap agar xnmpk zahir mnangis.. hati mnangis msih tdk mgapa..

huk3. entah la. sye kne ttp dh lappy.

lesson. do not take me as example. i am too kind i think. #cop! bkn riak. juz sye rse sye xptowt fikir psl owg len untk kbhgian diri sndiri.tp sye ttp mkir gop:3 

assalamualaikum w.b.t...

dear readers.

hurm. sye xtaw ape yg tjadi pd diri sye skrg nie..sye rindukan awk :( sye xmmpu tpu diri sye yg sye msih sygkn awk.. 

sye taw,pjlnn kte msih jauh. n mngkin satu hari nanti ble sye nk kembali, mse tu dh tlewat.. mngkin awk da ade owg lain. mngkin sumenye akn brubah. xsperti dlu... dn mngkin syye kne trime takdir.sye da khilangan awk totally..

sye dgr awk pergi kl lps kakak awk taw psl result awk.. sye bmbg kalu awk kne mrh.. sye k yg buat result awk jatuh mcm tu ? sye xnk awk kne mrh sbb sye.. sye bmbg sngt. sye xdpt tdo lena smlm. sye asyik mmkirkn psl awk. awk ingt x? sye pnh gtaw awk. sye bleyh kawal emosi sye. ble sye tdo,sume sye keep aside. ble sye stdy,sye xkn mkir bnde len dh.. tp,sye xdpt jd cmtu skrg. sye xdpt tdo lnsung smlm:( kjp2 tjage. mmikirkn yg awk ade lam bas. awk dh pegy kl.. n xtaw ble awk akn balik..

sye cube lupekan sume psl kte. sye cube anggap awk mcm kawn biase. sye cbe alihkn tmpuan sye.. sye xnk bg hrpn tnggi kat awk sbb tkowt awk kecewa lagy.. tp sye xmmpu:( sye rndukan awk.. sngt. huk3.. yup,sye mmpu tpu sume owg yg sye dh xmnaruh prasaan kat awk sbb sye sndiri keliru.. sye rse khlgn sngt. rse cm sumthing is incomplete evryday sye bgn,nk tdo,nk mkn.huk3. there's sumthing missing. huk3. n i know i had to accept dat the thing missing is you. huk3.

cme,harp awk kuat. jgn biar ksh syg sye nie buat awk down. anggap la sume nie cme mmpi andai nie bleyh buat awk bngkit. mngkin ble tbe masenye,Allah akn tnjukkn kpd kte ape yg sbaiknye dtakdirkn untk kte..

awk,keep struggling. jgn nges lagy. sbb sye nk awk kuat. sye nk awk bjye. 

walau sye tiada disisi awk lagy,jgn down. sye xske.huk3. sbb sye juge sdg mcuba untk bgn. jd,dun gve up.

kuat! chayoo! 

mics chiyo hana~

assalamualaikum w.b.t.

xd sye nmpk awan..nmpk mendung sngt.sye ingt hari akan hujan.tp sangkaan sye xbtowl.sye rse angin menghembus diri sye..tp sye xdpt sntuh nye.mybe sbb ia tlalu abstrak? sperti ape yg sye rasakn skrg.sye xtaw..ape sbnrnye sye rasakan..adakah syg tu sudah hilang? knpe hilang begitu sje?  knpe harus skrg sye perlu merasainya?huk3.

sye xtaw nk bhdpn mcm mne dgn dye..sye xtaw,adakah ape yg sye rse sblum nie skadar syg sbgai seowg shbt? atau bnr2 sbgai seowg yg mcintai? apabile sye dgr suara dye,sye rse dye amat sygkn sye.apabila sye dgr suara dye,sye dpt rse dye bnr2 myayangi diri sbgai lbeyh dr seowg shbt biase...sye buntu wak. sye xdpt luahkn ape yg sye pndm ble dgr suara awk.sbb dlm suara awk sye taw awk mmerlukn sokongan sye,untk kuatkn awk...tp,mngkin sye xdpt jd owg tu lgy..mngkin akn ade yg lbeyh beq dr sye sdg mnanti awk..kalau boleh,sye nk dgr suara awk kali terakhir.sbb sye dpt rasakan hbgn kte xakan btahan lame..

bkn sbb sye suke pd seseowg yg len,tp..mngkin kte x lagy serasi.bkn sbb kpntgn diri sye ckp mcm nie,nie untk kbaikan kte bdue. lagy lame kte bpure2,lgy tseksa kte wak..sye nk hbgn nie jejakkn ke pelamin satu hari nanti.sye xtaw ape yg ptowt sye buat..sye taw,slame nie sye mngkin kdg2 mybbkn diri awk rse x bgune.kdg2 buat diri awk sedih dn ttkn..andai ade jodoh antara kte bdue,pasti akn ade satu detik kte btemu kmbali.kn? btape jaoh sye skalipun dr awk,sye ttp akn mjadi milik awk anddai sudah dijodohkn tuhan..

sye xhabis lagy bfikir..sye perlukan mase lagy untk tngkn diri sye..kdg2,sye rase bhgia bsama awk,sbb awk owg yg sngt mgambil brt ttg diri sye.beli ubat ble sye sakit.tmn sye ble sye nk mnges..sye xtaw.kalau sye lpskn awk,adakah sye akn myesal satu hari nanti? myesal krn lpskn llaki sbaik awk? huk3.adakah sye akn jmpe seseowg yg caring mcm awk? sye buntu wak.buntu sngt..kdg2 sye nges sowg2.kdg2,sye snyum sowg2.

entah knpe,tahun nie seolah2 byk yg mguji phbgn kite.stiap hari kte akn bgaduh smpy mlm.sume moody..persoaln2 akn dtye smpy kte xreti memahaminye..kepala berat seolah2 ade yg meletakkn batu besar di atsnye.smpy dlm plrn kte byk tcicir. hnye krn satu prsaan.prasaan ini sngguh kuat.mkn xlalu,tdur xlena,ape yg dpndg seolah2 tdk mberi erti sdikitpun..prasaan ini sngguh kuat shingga kte tlena dlm mmpi yg xpasti kyataannye...huk3.

maafkn sye.sye msih perlukn mse.huk3.kakak sye pom da pgg fon sye.maafkn sye.huk3.salam.

Shin Rae Woo,kamu kene kuat :'(

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mlm nie xde pom bintang.sye xpernah jmpe bntg sye.sbb ia x pernah ade kat situ.sye xtaw knpe,dlm byk2 owg,sye x dpt buat diri sye hilang jeles kat dye.mybe sbb dye pnh ambik aty awk dlu.n awk pom asyik bndg diri dye dgn diri sye..sye taw sye xprnah dpt jd owg yg sama sperti dye..sbb dye tlalu smpuarna bg awk.sbb sye tlalu kurang bg awk.itu sbb sye xdpt tgk dye.sye xdpt nk tgur dye pom.sbb sye tkowt...sye tkowt untk khilangan awk.

sye taw,awk xde prasaan dh kat dye.tp mgapa hati sye,naluri sye asyik kata awk msih mnaruh hrpn pd dye? cara awk pndg dye..ia buat saye sakit wak.huk3.sakit sngt..n mlm nie ble awk pergy skola,n sye dpt taw dye pom pergy skola untk acara esk...sye juz rse cm awk pergy skola sbb nk jmpe dye k? sbb awk dh mule bncikn sye k? xd mse kwn sye gtaw awk ade kat skola,sye tfikir..awk gado nge sye,n awk pergy tngkan fikiran dgn cara tgk dye dari jauh k? entah la wak.sakit wak..sakit hidup dgn prasaan mcm nie.sakit.huk3.

entah wak..sye mntk maaf.tp sye juz rase awk bdue tlalu byk psamaan.n awk bdue tlalu spadan.sye bkn ragui pape,cme,sye rasa sye x layak untuk msuk cmpur.seolah olah sye nie owg ketiga..sye xtaw awak bckp bnr x nge sye? btowl k awk x mcg dh dgn dye? ntah.huk3.sye mntk maaf sbb masih ragui diri awk,mybe sbb sye tlalu tkowt.tkowt untk dkecewakan lagy.sangkakan setia,tp...akhirnye kecewa jugak.sye lteyh.

ble stiap kali sye tgk awak lihat dye,n sye imbas balik kngn dlu..sye rse cm sye xptowt hadir.mngkin sbnrnye khadiran sye cme skadar shbt,cme sbb awk rse thutang budi,bru awk mule rapat dgn sye.huk3.walaupun dye x buat pape,tp dye penuhi sume ciri2 yg awk idamkn.n sye pula msih tkial kial untk ubah diri sye.untk jd sperti dirinye.sye msih tkial kial wak.stiap kali sye gagal,awk xdorong sye,awk marah2 sye knpe x jd cm dye.ntah.walaupun awk x sbut direct,tp sye dpt fhm siapa yg awk mksdkn..huk3.

sye cube untk jd yg tbaik.kdg2 sye tsasur.kdg2 sye bsikap knk2 riang.sye cbe untk jd lbeyh matang,n sye harapkn awk dorong sye.bhenti bndgkn diri sye dgn seseowg..bhenti mrh2,ckp awk kcewa nge sye.entah..stiap kali awk ckp awk kcewa dgn sikap sye,sye nges.sye ckp kat diri sye,

"hana,awk dh cbe sdaya upaya.jgn nges.mybe dye ckp dye kcewa sbb awk msih gagal jd diri owg itu.jgn nges lagy wak..sye taw awk kuat.kte usaha lagy.huk3."

sye taw sye byk kcewakn awk.mybe sbb diri sye bkn sperti yg awk harapkn..mngkin awk tlalu mharap sye untk sye mjd dirinye.seowg pndiam,snyp,baik,xkecoh,matang,...sye perlukan mse untk ubahnye.ia bkn mse 2,3 hari.mngkin ambik mse btahun2.sbb bkn sng nk ubah.awk xfhm.sbb sye trime awk seadanya.sye xharapkan awk jd sperti owg yg sye prnh syg dlu..sbb sye taw,awk da ckup perfect mcm nie.xperlu ubah pape.huk3.tp sye taw,mmg sye kne jd mtg sket.sbb sye kene jage diri sye t,lps spm..huk3.

sye xtnjuk syg sye.sye bkn mcm owg len.sye ego? mybe.sbb sye taw,syg sye mahal hrganya.skali sye sygkn seseowg,susah untk sye padamknnnya.walau pelbagai pbuatan dye buat kat sye,syg nie xpernah hilang.sbb ble da syg,hati dh mlekat.nk buat cmne? mmg x dpt buat pape kn?huk3.jd,hargai lah syg sye.sbb xmudah untk sye berikan.hargailah kpercayaan sye.sbb xmudah sye untk amanahkn.hargailah diri sye.skali khlgn,xkn dpt lagy.huk3.

Park Hyo Jim,i'm sorry.

harap blog nie xbuat kte bgado lagy.huk3.

-mics chiyo hana-

matureeee.....

assalamualaikum w.b.t

lame sye x update kn? rndu blog nie.dr kol 8 lbeyh gy sye try log in,tp xdpt...sorry.haha.kdg,sye bz ngt lenim..sye tlibat nge byk mslh,kbykn mslh emosi r.hehe.

okei,for first of all.tlg jgn libatkn spe2 ble sye tulis nie.law awk phm skalipom,dun ever mention dis post kat owg len..bia la owg yg bce nie jep yg taw.sye xnk sume taw mslh yg sye hadapi....

dear blogger,sye sndiri xtaw prasaan sye skrg..tlalu byk yg sye fikirkn..yup,sye mmg xnk khlgn owg yg sye syg sperti dulu..sperti 2thun lps..sye xnk n sye xnk bnde yg sme blaku tahun nie...sye juz,harap sye akn bhgia.sye dah ckup tluka 2 thun lps.n it exam year too.n dis year,i hope we will be just fine.sye dh byk nges sbb dye.sye xnk nges lagy.sye lteyh sngt.sye xnk sye juz btepuk sblh tgn cm 2thun lps..yup..kngn zaman silam sye mmg manis,tp ade pahitnye ble sye taw kbnrnnye..yup,sye juz tluka mybe? n ble sye tgk dye,sye juz doa dye jumpe owg yg beq untk diri dye..sye still doa,mge2 dye xkn lukakn hati seseowg yg bakal dye temui satu hari nanti mcm yg dye buat kat sye dulu.its hurt...

xd sye bce status dye..syukur laa law dye da jmpe seseowg yg mmpu wat dye setia...cngrate.harap awk x lukakn hati dye lagy k? 

sye nges lagy xd..sory. sye bkak fb.yup,dye xapprove sye,...awk,dye still mharap pada awk.sye taw laa,sye prmpuan jugak.sye taw,dye still sygkn awk.dye still xdpt lupekan prasaan dye kat awk walaupun slps 2,3 tahun,,,yup,dye bkn jnis prampas.tp,awk taw kn pe yg sye rase saat nie? cmne law dye ambush sye? suh sye jarakkn diri sye nge awk? n dye lebyh matang dri sye..sye tkowt:(  kite pun slalu gado kn? ble sye mkir psl tu,sye xtaw sama ada sye yg dtkdirkn untk awk..sbb kite seolah2 ade sumthing yg buat kte slalu x bspndpt..kdg2,kite gado.then kite bbeq smule..sye lteyh gado cmtu.sye juz harap walaupun juz shari, kite  xkn gado..

sye dpt taw dye col awk...dye tye awk dh bpnye k blum kn? huk3.yup...msty dye rndukn saat awk nge dye kn? yup.first love always will be a memory for us.coz first love dat give us a strenght dat no one will be able to explain it..awk bnding sye nge ye xd..yup,rse nk nges.tp sye tahan jugak...sbb sye taw,xgne sye nges.yup,sye pasti dye lbeyh beq dr sye.sye xleyh nk nafikan pkara tu..huk3.byk kali sye cbe cari,ape keistimewaan sye bbndg dye?tp sye xjmpe pape...yup,dye cntik,perfect.perfect untk awk..yup,sye xptowt ckp mcm tu.tp,tu yg aty sye sering ckp kt sye.i dun deserve 4 u...perhaps,sye tpkse lpskn awk cm dlu..perhaps sye akn tluka lagy mcm dlu dmi kbhgiaan owg len..walaupun sye xrela,ble Allah dh tkdirkn mcm tu,sye ttp kne lpskn awk..

awk,sye kcewa ble taw awk bls2 cmment kat wall post gitu..n awk hide post tu..sye bkn ape.sye juz,,sye ntah la.huk3.sye taw awk nk kwn lagy nge dye.yup,tlalu byk psamaan antra awk dgn dye..smpy sye rase sye adlh owg ktige.awk phm k pe yg sye ckp k nie? mybe awk xphm.huk3.tp tu yg sye dpt ckp.sye sdeyh awk buat cmtu.tp,pkara da lps.sye xnk ungkit lagy.huk3.sye juz hrp awk xlukakn sye sperti dlu.huk3.

sye xtaw knpe kite sering xoke lenim..ade je modal untk kte bgado.sye xnk bgado.n sye xde ckup tnge untk tahan air mata sye  dr trus mgalir stiap saat.huk3.

 oh,cmne ek nk jd matang?huk3.sye puas mikir oh.n sye xtaw oh nk ubah gne.huk3.

somehow...

assalamualaikum w.b.t

well,i'm here now.still can typing..hehe.sbb dh la nk exm,still can online.so,ble sye online nie,msty la sye nk tuliskn sumthing kn? hihi.well,its bout my life,plus3 with other's life.i know i shouldn.t interfere,but somehow,i do think that i should.otherwise,i would got the blame-.-

hurm..actually,sye tkot dh nk update status pape,or even writing in a blog.n twitter,i thought i would never join dat social networking..pengalaman wak..pglmn tu mbuat sye rase tkowt.jd,mybe lps nie,sye akn lbeyh suke mmdm rase yg ade lam aty sye.no more blogspot perhaps?..sedeyh bnornyep.coz blog nie je tmpt sye luahkn ape yg sye rase..btowl,xtpu :'(  coz its better when adop dh owg yg gtaw sumone yg len ttg ape yg sye update.sye taw,sye slh..knpe sye ambik kptsn cm2? sbb,sye sdr,ramai yg phatikan ape yg sye update lam fb..mcm hari tu.juz,dunno who tell A,but i got da lesson.mngkin pkara yg sme blaku,ble sye update blog nie.jd,sye akn tulis diari lak kot? hihi.i guess i had to mnabung starting now.sye nk bli bku.bku diari.n_n lame taw x tulis.hihi.so,mybe kte xkn bjumpe lagi kwn mayaku..n thanks who had read this blog,law adop pom,takpe la.hihi.sye x mharap ape2 bce.coz,perhaps,hidup sye mmg mbosankn.:) takpe,sye trime hdup sye,sbb sye bhgia dgn hdp sye skrg:)

dear awak,,,sye syg nk tnggl awk.coz,awk byk tahu ape yg sye rase.smpay awk bleyh phm sye owg yg mcm mne..bku tu bkn tahu pape pom,ye bku kn:( jgn persoalkn....

sye rase,nie last sye update blog nie...sayonara.brt sngt nk tnggal blog nie.tp,tu yg sye kne buat.xkre suka atau bnci..byep2:(

perhaps,nk spare tyme kat cni cket:) mybe nk luahkn sumthing?huhu.mngkin,sbnrnye x pntg pom untk dbace,cume..mngkin aty sye akn lbeyh tng n tenteram? sye taw,xgne kte luah kat sini,mslh ttp akn jd satu mslh.n ia xkn brubah slagi kte x cube untk selesaikn kn?...

merah..biru..hijau..kuning..

try r gabung warna2 tu.cantik sngt..n alangkh best law hdup kte dpt jd warna cm tu..coz,xde warne hitam yg myebabkn kte mnangis..xde warna kelabu yg buat kte bduka..xde warna yg menjejaskn warna2 nie..tapi,hidup x slalunya begitu..jd,kte kne berani kn? kuat smngt kn? 

adakah slh ble sye cube untk mpertahankn sesuatu walaupun sye sndiri tluka? itu namanye pgorbanan kn?tp..xsume akn nmpk pgorbanan tu..sbb pgorbanan tu hnye kite yg dpt rasai btapa perit untk mlepasknnye,hnye kte mmahami btpe bnilai pkara tu untk kite lpskn...tp,mngkin ble nie untk kbaikan seseowg,pgorbanan kte akn dianggap sbgai jasa? atau dianggap pkara bodoh?

melepaskn seseowg amat mmeritkn..mlepaskn prasaan yg sudah lame tpendam mjdkn kte x bmaya untk teruskn hdup..mlihat seseowg yg kte syg bhgia dgn owg len yg kite kenali amat memedihkn..walau kte rasa itu lah jodoh mreka,tp air mata tu ttp akn mgalir bukan? kte mnangis,mungkin kite mahu berada di tmpt owg yg dismpingnye skrg..

berada di tepi laut lebih menjerat perasaan yg sedia ada..berada beseorangan akn mmaksa kite untk mgimbas knangan manis itu..berada dlm ksshn akn mbuat kte tringt akn ptlgan dia dulu..walau btpe kuat kite tangisi,tp,kptsn kte mlpskn seseuatu yg kte sygi,itu lah yg akn mjd kpptsn yg amat kte sesali..sbb tu,maafkn sye,,sye x dpt mjwb soalan awk xd.

mngkin,pkenalan kte mjdkn sye hanyut mmendam rasa yg sukar untk diungkpkn.shngga sye xmmpu untk mjwb soalan awk..sbb,sjujurnye sye msih mmerlukn awk untk kuatkn diri sye.sye xmmpu untk berada dlm dilema nie lagi..ble awk stat bdmud,yup,sye ragu2..mngkin sbb sye msih rase sye xdpt jd pganti 'dia' walaupun dulu awk hnye btepuk sblh tgn..and,ntah sye agak yakin..awk msih mnunggu dia.mngkin sbb,ble dye bg nsht kat awk,awk pasti dapat trime dgn hati yg tbuka kn? sbb bg awk,awk lbeyh terer dr dye kn? jd awk xkn ckp,"ckp mmg r sng" "owg bjak gne ngt" "owg bjak gitu r"

sye tahu sye xmmpu mjd dye,n sye hampir bputus asa..sye lteyh cube mjd seseowg yg len..seseowg yg awk inginkn sbgai calon.tapi,sye ttp truskn pjuangan.dgn harapan awk akn mnerima ape jua diri sye..tapi,soalan awk ptg xd mbuat sye tkedu.saat itu sye mula mmahami,sye gagal kn? sye xdpt buat awk btng pom.mlh ltk diri awk dlm tknn sbb seolah2 mmaksa awk untk mnandingi diri sye..shingga awk lteyh..sudah la,jgn pksa diri awk lagi..sye xkn pkse diri awk lagi.mngkin ape yg kte rncg hnye akn mjd satu  rncgan..mngkin kngn kte hnye akn mjd kngn yg hnye dpt diimbas..

mngkin kte patowt mjauhkn diri buat seketika..mngkin nie dpt tngkn hati awk,n juga hati sye..mngkin,nie kptsn yg amat berat,iaitu untk mlpskn awk walau seketika..sbb sye x prnh mjangka,soalan nie akn ditanya awk..mngkin,awk sudah penat.sye ptowt bg awk berehat kn? mngkin,kite xkn serapat dulu.,mgkin,kte akn lebeyh tmpu pd belajar kte..SPM  dh dkt..sye doakn awk bjaya.sye doakn kte bjaya..n sye ttp akn bntu awk revise balik yg form 4 dgn ape jua skali pun...

satu hari nanti,sye akn ttp tnggu awk.sye nk lihat awk bjaye.awk owg yg tbeq yg hadir lam hidup sye.sukar untk sye padamkn dlm memori sye.sye visual kn? awk..mngkin nie akn jd ppshn yg smentara.mngkin nie akn jd ppshan yg lama.sye akn ttp mnunggu...jodoh sumenye d tgn Allah.kelak,jika kite ada jodoh,kte akn jmpe smula.n mse tu,sye akn merasa sngt gmbira jika diri awk blum tiada calon..tp,andainye awk da jmpe calon,sye akn snyum pd awk,dlm hati sye,sye akn bkata..

"awak,cngrate.sye tmpg gmbira untk awk..sye doakn awk bhgia.sye xmmpu mhalang lagi.cukup lah awk tseksa krn sye pada satu mse dahulu..sye,gmbira awk akn bhgia..sbb mngkin sudah tibe mse untk sye turut mcari seseowg."

                                           -miss chiyo hana-