thE memORy

assalamualaikum.huhu.

aq xtaw.tlalu byk untk difikirkn..aq xtaw law owg akn bce post nie.aq nk privatekn,tp aq suke untk mbuat owg len myelami sndiri ape yg aq rase..dn itu mbuatkn aq untk trus wat status blog nie sbgai public..tp,ble aq fikirkn smule,ble aq tulis sumthin,aq takowt owg slh phm...mreka tlalu cpt make their own conclusions.so sad to hear it.but,the reality is there.no need to be discussed for sure.

kdg2,aq xtaw.aq nk luahkn ape yg aty aq pndm kat cni.aq nk bia sumenye lepas.tp ble aq fikir akn ade owg yg bce blog nie,ia wat aq jd x keruan..seolah-olah aq sdg mmaparkn kisah hdup aq untk tontonan ramai.seolah-olah aq sdg cbe menagih smpati dr owg yg mbcenye.dn aq xsuke untk diberi rse simpati tu.coz ble smpati,diowg xkn ikhlas wat sumthin untk aq.huk3.msty korg pnah rse gak.atau hdup korg lebeyh perfect dr aq.no one knows.but as for me as i am not 100% perfect,or perhaps i just a human dat less than 50% perfection.or could be lesser than dat,i try to postivekn my mind.syukur alhamdulillah is a word dat can make me smile again ble aq kne hina atau diumpat atau diperkatakn ttg kekurangnku.kdg2 aq plek,spnjg aq mjlani hdup nie,aq tgk..knpe owg tlalu mudah judge seseowg bdasarkn luarannye?

                                      (nie hnye gmbar smata2)

yup,mmg xdop istilah luar truk,hati baik..tu kte abg2,kkk2,n kwn sekelas yg agak alim.yup,diowg kte,law aty beq,law aty suci,kte xkn brani wat pkara2 yg truk2..tp,sye plek.adakah kte sdg mbhaskn aty seseowg bdasarkn pnampilannya? 

Ali ibn Abbi Talib (RA):

"A friend cannot be considered as friends until he is tested in three occasions; in time of need, behind your back and until after your death."

knpe kte diberi kbenaran untk judge aty owg tu? kte xtaw.mybe owg yg pkai pkaian auratnye lengkap ditutup,tp las2 dialah yg tikam blkg kte?(nie CONTOH okey???JGN SLAH PHAM!) knpe ble kte tgk owg tu cm lebeyh krg je..tp sbnrnye dia owg ptama yg akn mbantu kte pabila kte mmerluknnnye?aq bkn cbe mbankang ape yg dibahaskn,nmun untk mpunyai pndpt sndiri x salh kn? aq pnah lalui.ade yg bnar2 prangai baik,dn dia jugak yg tlg aq ble aq mmerluknnye.ade yg prangai cm lebeyh krg,tp dye owg ptama yg bg supot untk aq trus bgn dr kjatuhan nie.ade yg prangai cm owg yg amat alim,tp dia jua yg mmusnahkn kpercayaanku pdnya.aq xkte owg alim nie jht.bkn aq bmksd g2,phm mlep2 ea.aq juz ingin taw.knpe diowg ckp cm2? knpe diowg judge cm2? huk3.

kdg2,ble seseowg tu dilihat owg yg x ar alim sngt,owg2 yg slme nie bshabt nge ye,cbe untk mjauhkn diri.bkpe? awk,bkpe wat g2? pshbtn kte hnye bnilai stkat tu jewp ker? atau pgorbanan sye slame nie xde ertinye bg awk? atau awk takowt status awk yg dipandang owg len sbgai owg alim tercemar gara2 pshbatan antara kte? sye...sye kecewa nge awk..sye xtaw,knpe ble sye epy jewp bru awk hadir? ble sye keseorgan,dn mmerlukn seowg kwn,awk tiada untk saat itu? maafkn sye.tp sye ttp mnusia.sye prempuan.sye bkn llaki yg keras hatinye saat diuji begini.kdg2 tngisan itu akn mjdi pgubat.nmun smpay ble harus tngisan itu jua yg mjadi pgubat? awk tlalu bz.mngkin sbb pngkat kte berbeza,mybbkn sye trus dipinggirkn.yup,awk slalu bg nsihat kat pljar2 len spya stdy,kuatkn smngt,bla3..tp awk lupe ttg sye..awk lupe.awk alpa lam hal nie.sye kecewa nge awk.

juz,if i'm given a chance to give a brief talk juz btweeen us for 5 mnutes,i would be grateful.i wanna say dat i will still trying my best to hold the base of dis fwenship on its place.perhaps one day it gonna be ruined,but atleast i had try.n i will give up with satisfy.awk,law sye diberi mse 5 mnit untk bsme awk,sye akn hrgainye btowl2..law sye dberi mse 1 mnit untk bmnje nge awk,sye x akn sia2kn peluang tu.juz nk awk taw,how hard its gonna be,i will be strong as i could.

aq pom tfikir gop.adkah ppisahan tu akn tjd ble kte abis f5 etg? perlukah? huk3.law bleyh,aq xnk mnde tu tjadi bley?huk3.tlalu byk kngn yg mgikatku.tlalu byk ktwa yg kami lalui bsame..yup,mybe ble gy kat tmpt len untk smbg blajo.,kte akn jmpe owg bru yg lebeyh beq..tp mreka xkn ttp sme..xkn sme cre diowg pujuk nge cre awk pujuk.xsme cre diowg men nge sye cm cre awk men nge sye..its too dfferent till i don't want to be part of dis sepration.huk3.juz,awk,sye nk gtaw,sye epy nge khadiran awk lam hdup sye.tQ.

assalamualaikum...